to procreate or not to procreate (next year)...

when steve and i were first married we decided to start having children after 4 yrs. of marriage.  I always dreamed of finding my prince charming and having children.  now that we're getting closer to our 3 yr. mark i find myself almost fearful of bearing our own little people.  we are just getting started with doing fun things together and exploring, traveling, oh, and still figuring out marriage!  i have just decided to help out with young life www.younglife.org and we've also been talking about me going back to school full time... just waiting on a couple confirmations =) we are deciding this week.  i want to major in fine arts/art education.  my art teachers had a big impact on me (it's was easy to converse as we worked on projects) and i want to be able to do the same with high school students.  i had worked with high school students (girls) in our church back home and am looking into opportunities to invest in/mentor/hangout with, high school girls in our area.  it would be neat to have teaching art as an outlet for that also.  i have felt hesitant for while about pursuing art, thinking i couldn't really use it to reach out to people, like going overseas to a remote country in africa.  just recently i've had my eyes opened to the fact that there are so many young people (young women especially) seeking truth, guidance, love, constancy, and that is a people group i have a heart for.  

      hmm... just when i thought we had a plan...

i think we'll wait a few more years to start having kids.